May take a break from the internet for a few days. I can feel something bad on the horizon.

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5 days ago on 17 September 2014 @ 10:53pm 2 notes

I need to get my health under control before something awful and irreversible happens.

6 days ago on 17 September 2014 @ 10:16am 2 notes

It is the most inexplicable feeling; being both attracted to and repulsed by men. Like… How?

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6 days ago on 17 September 2014 @ 1:01am 1 note

I feel like having a cheesy 80s movie marathon…

6 days ago on 17 September 2014 @ 12:21am 2 notes

Why I Question the Calibre of My Facebook “Friends”

  • Me: I'm not looking forward to Halloween because inevitably someone is going to wear something stereotypical and racist and I'm gonna be expected to be okay with it. If you aren't a Native American from a Plains group who has earned the honor and right to wear a war bonnet, you shouldn't wear one. If you aren't Mexican, Dia De Los Muertos or mariachi costumes aren't a good look. If you aren't Japanese, maybe leave the Geisha getup at the store. No sexy Pocahontases, please. Just... I feel it in my bones. I'm gonna be mad.
  • Her: Halloween is about dressing up as the opposite of yourself. It was about tricking the spirits away from you
  • Me: Possible to do without being insensitive and racist tho.
  • Her: It's only racist if they're intentionally being disrespectful. Imitation is the highest form of flattery.
  • Me: Completely disagree. Intent doesn't matter. "I didn't intend to run over six people" doesn't hold up in court, neither should "I didn't intend to uphold harmful stereotypes and prejudices by reducing your rich culture into a cheap throwaway costume idea".
6 days ago on 16 September 2014 @ 6:29pm 48 notes
  • Interviewer: Describe yourself in two words.
  • Me: Utterly inadequate. Completely miserable. Cripplingly insecure. Horribly lonely... Pick a pair. Pick any pair.
  • Interviewer: ... That's more than two words.
  • Me: Total failure.
1 week ago on 15 September 2014 @ 6:35am 5 notes

I fear aging and dying alone. °˖ ✧◝(○ ヮ ○)◜✧˖ °

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1 week ago on 15 September 2014 @ 12:45am 10 notes

A lot of my depression stems from feelings of being alien… Being subpar, inadequate, and “wrong”. As I grow older, I’m discovering these feelings aren’t mine… They were given to me. They were foisted on me by an oppressively narrow society that says all the things I just so happen to be are wrong. I internalized it. I believed it. Now, I’m desperately trying to fight my way out of it… But knowing a thing and feeling it in your heart are two different things. I’ll have to keep fighting.

1 week ago on 13 September 2014 @ 3:37am 6 notes

sólo solos y solitario

1 week ago on 11 September 2014 @ 5:30am 1 note

Been stuck in an icky sad place for some time. Trying to climb out of it but it’s like clawing at quicksand. All the positive affirmations and well wishes and hope spots and I still feel like I’m getting nowhere. Tired.

1 week ago on 11 September 2014 @ 3:17am 3 notes